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riding a familiar but new path on my bike, "alexander! my older brother!", i sang to the sun that comes through the trees' ceiling; my younger brother riding alongside me.

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the floor of the old arndale centre, light dirty squares, donuts you want to make into a wedding cake, clothes made for older bodies, thinking of bookshops and stationers in arcades that i need a student card to reach, the rain hitting the see-through roof of the tunnel - in the nighttime when we're not too young to stay out past seven.

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walking through the merrion centre, spandau ballet - aching from repetition and filtered through decades-old machinery - booms from the mezzanine balcony of the carpark above me. i feel, as i gingerly hold the corners of a hot sandwich (from the shop with the 60s sign and the beige tiled floor), that i am walking through somebody else's lunch break.

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i think i'm going to write soon

xx
p.s. my boyfriend's band got reviewed by pitchfork - and they liked them!!
http://pitchfork.com/reviews/albums/13370-arrivals/
i'm so proud!

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things making me happy today:

1. i was featured in an etsy treasury! click here to see!
2. my boyfriend's mum's rocky road (now with added nuts - yum!)
3. a cup of coffee and some alone time
4. ed harcourt
5. still feeling like an extra mattress (or ten) of comfort, trust and friendship has been added to cushion me now that i've had my first anniversary with my boyfriend

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from here

i spent this weekend:
eating my boyfriend's homemade birthday cake
hiding away with him, watching high school musical 1+2
giving and receiving the sort of hugs where you press your whole cheek against their body
learning more about him through his home town and the way he plays guitar
scaring myself by playing an improv set whilst drunk
chatting on the floor with my friends
cooking a last minute meal and spending time with friends
giving birthday presents and feeling like i could never stop giving him everything
finding the future reassuring

xx

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Cameron and Ash do a lovely live music podcast with an accompanying webzine of art - it's always a relaxing listen and never fails to put a smile on my face! In the future, there'll be a CD of the bands that have played (who are all recorded in a basement and fed tea and cakes by the boys!) and a gig/exhibition with art and more live music. I can't wait for that!

This month, they feature Pilla, My First Tooth, Tellison, Red Trees and Cielovero. It's all beautiful. I think when this month's podcast finishes I'm going to rewind and play it all from the beginning again.

xx

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joan as police woman - the start of my heart

"the damage i've done / can show me the way to my heart"

xx

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Her Name is Calla at The Luminaire, London
10/04/2009

I'm second from the left! Photo by Richard Knox

xx

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richard dawson is incredible live
i'm so glad i finally found a video of this song!
richard dawson - final moments of the universe

xx